Plans

Before having a baby I was a super duper organized person. I had organized to do lists, had a spreadsheet to help me pay our bills on time, and found comfort in planning my life so that there would be minimal surprises. Of course, that has all changed since our little one joined our family. I CONSTANTLY have to remind myself that I’m not in control and she runs my life now;) I remember one day I was rushing in order to make it to an appointment.  I went to get her out of her swing, ready to put her in the car seat, and she had spit up all over her outfit. I could do nothing but smile and accept that we were going to be late. (I must admit I still hate being late, don’t know if I’ll ever give this one up). However, Isabelle is a good reminder that no matter how much I plan for things to be perfect, they never will be.

While reading a devotional one morning this week, I came across this idea: “Replace anger or sadness with praises to the Lord today.” (I decided to also add complaining in there) Having a baby does make your life harder, but there are hundreds of little moments that make it worth it, and I realized I should be more thankful.

So, when I feel frustrated or stressed because things aren’t working out as planned,  I also think about two of my favorite verses in the Bible.  I hope they can brighten your day or whatever situation you are going through.

  • “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:9
  •  “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
  • Recent highlights:  She is literally just a joy. She makes me wonder how one little human being could bring joy to so many lives.
  • Recent funny moment: She pushes her tongue against her bottom lip which makes it look like she is pouting or an old lady. It is hilarious (to me at least..lol)
  • Recent crazy parent moment: While I try to feed her cereal, she grabs the spoon every single time.  I feel like I’m looking into the future when she’ll say “No, I want to do it myself mommy”. Someone please pray for patience..hahaha
  • Recent milestones: She ‘halfway’ rolls from her back to her stomach and vice versa.  She won’t commit and go all the way. She starts rolling and stops right before she is on the other side. Crazy girl. She also likes to to sit up, but she can’t do it on her own yet.
  • Bellelesson of the week:
    Life never goes according to your plan, because it’s not supposed to. Find peace in knowing that God has a plan for your life, far greater than you could ever imagine. So though I will still depend on my to do list to help me along the way, I’ll try not to complain when there is a bump in the road. Plus who knows where that unexpected bump will lead me, there just may be a rainbow at the end of that road:)
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Rocking my baby

So we have been trying to work on getting Isabelle to fall asleep on her own…but usually I just end up rocking her to sleep. Though I know this most likely will backfire one day, nothing can beat the feeling of watching her fall asleep in my arms. I just put her to bed and we all know babies love to fight sleep! As I stood there rocking her back and forth, back and forth (just like in our favourite book Love You Forever) she kept moving and wouldn’t stay still. She kept pulling her pacifier out of her mouth and opening her eyes after briefly closing them. I thought maybe if I stopped looking at her she would fall asleep, but that only made it worse. It wasn’t until I started holding her very close to me and whispering a lullaby to her and saying “mommy’s here” that she calmed down and fell asleep.

This made me think of my relationship with God. I fidget, I get upset, I try to do my own thing, I am determined to get to my “calm place” on my own. However, it’s not until I stop and listen to Him saying ” I am here” and remember that He wants to help me, that I calm down. Stubbornly, sometimes I only stay a few moments in His arms and think “I got it now! Thanks!” and I rush off to finish my day without Him on my mind. Silly me. Just like Isabelle feels calm and safe in my arms, God’s arms are where there is EVERLASTING peace. I’m just happy He gives me a million chances to run back to them, just like I’ll never reject my pumpkin wanting to be in my arms.

  • Recent highlights:  She laughs a lot more now. She and her dad have this routine when he comes home. He tickles her and she laughs so hard. So cute:)
  • Recent funny moment: She recently figured out she has lips. She usually smacks them, but one day she randomly started making fish faces. I think she has a bit of her dad’s goofy personality.
  • Recent crazy parent moment: The last few days were a blur of crazy moments. We moved as I mentioned earlier, so just trying to juggle moving with a baby was crazy.
  • Recent milestones: She is getting a lot better at grabbing things. She also has started what I call singing. It’s the sweetest thing ever!
  • Bellelesson of the week: God is waiting for you to let Him help you through each day. His arms are always open.

Left Neglected

Left Neglected

I have been MIA for a few weeks! We just moved and things are a little hectic.  I have been wanting to blog, so I’m happy to get back to it:) I am feeling a little generous, so I think I’ll write 2 posts!

I recently joined a book club and we had our first meeting a few weeks ago. We read a book called “Left Neglected”. Pretty much, it’s about a woman who is a wife and mother who has a very busy lifestyle until an accident forces her to slow down and re-evaluate her life.  The clever book title refers to a syndrome called neglect, where your brain ignores one side of your body. However, it also refers to the things in life we choose to neglect to keep up with our lifestyles.

We ended up discussing how we balance our work-home priorities and a lot of questions came to my mind. Do I send Isabelle to daycare or get a nanny? If I get a nanny will she be more attached to the nanny than us? Is it possible for one of us to stay home with her or work part-time? If I can’t work part-time, how do I have a successful career but also spend a lot of quality time with my family? Most likely, I will work full-time when I go back to work in October and I know one thing: I love being a speech-pathologist – but my family is the most important thing to me. When I think about work, I get nervous because I want to make sure that once I step through the front door at home that I leave work on the other side.

We live such hectic lives these days, and honestly my biggest fear would be for Isabelle to grow up and feel like “something” else was more important than her.  There are adults who feel this way today, even though their parents may not have intentionally caused their children to feel this way. I think that most parents do so much in order to help their children have a better life. However, I think at some point we have to slow down and ask if something is being  neglected. Do we need to refocus our priorities and let some things go? What can we cut out so we can spend more time with our children?

I was lucky to have my grandmother live with me as a baby. Times have changed though. A lot of grandmas (or “Gi Gi’s” as my mom calls herself) have their own careers now and aren’t in the position to stop working. Therefore, knowing that I will be leaving my daughter with someone else for hours a day, I hope I can structure my lifestyle so that she grows up and feels that we were always there for her still. I want to go to the school concerts, music lessons, sports games, and dance recitals. I want to help her with her homework and teach her how to cook/bake or make arts and crafts. I just want to be present, because I remember first hand how that feels as a child. So though my parents probably felt guilty at times that they were too busy, I don’t remember that. I remember them being there. They somehow achieved a good balance between home and work life, and I pray we can do the same.