Mirror, mirror on the wall…

Hey! It’s been a while. I remember when I first started blogging, I hoped to write an entry every week. Haha. I don’t even know if I write one every month lol. Things have been really busy. We were visiting family in Canada and the US and had a blast! Belle got to meet and spend some more time with both sides of our families, so it was well worth it. I’ve become a little bit of a pro at flying with her by myself, so when my husband flew back to Edmonton with us he was surprised at how much work it took to get from the ticket counter at the airport to our seats on the airplane. I think we are done flying for a while now:)

I’m still off on maternity leave (whoot whoot Canada!) and I am really enjoying spending time outside with Belle. We usually go on a daily walk, and she’s getting big enough now to go on things like the swing at the park. I’m going to have a really really hard time going back to work. Nevertheless, I am NOT complaining. I know I’m blessed to have this time with her.

Within the last 4-6 weeks she has started doing this amazing thing – she takes a 2-3 hour nap every afternoon! If you’re close with me, you may have heard me complain that she would take about 2-3 30 minute naps a day.  Any mom knows a 30 minute nap doesn’t really leave you much time to get ANYTHING done. I would barely eat and take a shower and she’d be up! Well, now she takes a short nap in the morning and a really long one in the afternoon. Actually, it is 3:44 and she has been sleeping since 1 o’clock! Yes, I’m bragging, but it really has brought a new level of sanity to my life. I sat down today and watched a whole 2 hours of So You Think You Can Dance on my DVR in peace and quiet lol.

Anyway, on to my post for today. I’m sure other parents do this, but I have this habit of comparing everything Belle does to my husband or I.  She gets her crankiness when she is tired from me. She can give you a really good straight face like her dad. She knits her brow like I do and sleeps with her bum in the air like I did when I was a baby. People always comment on how calm she is and I tell them she gets it from her father.  It is almost as if I am constantly making sure she is our baby.

If you have met my mother, she tells you like it is (that…I did not get from her!) However, people constantly tell me “You are just like your mother.” Actually, my husband has a joke of calling me Nathalie (my mother’s name) when I’m behaving like her.  My maternal grandmother passed a few years ago, and I’m always teasing my mom that she is turning into her (No…she really is though!) She always replies with “Just keep breathing!” meaning the same thing will happen to me as I get older.

My mother has a pillow at home with this quote: “Mirror, mirror, on the wall, I am my mother after all.” When I was home the other day we were talking about this topic. Someone had commented that I was just like my mother and she asked if they meant that in a positive or negative way. (I was probably over-organizing something lol). I interrupted and told her of course it was a compliment.  The idea that she initially thought it had a negative connotation made me think.  I’m not naive to the fact that some people have strained relationships with their parents, and if someone were to compare them to a parent, it would bring up old wounds and the comment would feel more like an insult. However, as a parent, you have the opportunity to be someone your child will look up to. You have the power to take whatever struggles you had with your parent(s) and use them as guides for what you don’t want your child to learn from you. You have the chance to be the best person you can be, no matter your past.

So as I am fortunate that I have a good relationship with my parents and don’t mind if the similarities between us are many, I am aware that this occurred because they learned to grow from some of the hurt they experienced as children.  Therefore, I hope that as Belle grows, the person I am continues to be someone that she won’t mind being compared to when she is an adult.

  • Recent highlights:  Since returning from vacation, she is completely intrigued with our dog. She stares at her all day long. It’s kinda cute.
  • Recent funny moment: She has started dancing, well really bouncing up and down to music. Dance lessons here we come! lol
  • Recent crazy parent moment: We drove (8 hours) from Michigan to Maryland to visit my husband’s family and had to listen to countless hours of Elmo songs so she wouldn’t cry. I’m so over that CD.
  • Recent milestones:  She is crawling (it’s actually more of an army drag). She’s lazy with it though, and will only crawl if she really really wants something. She is also saying dada (Who cares?!!) I made a point of letting my husband know she really isn’t referring to him and that it’s (d) just an easy sound to say. I’m not jealous, it’s the truth! hahaha
  • Bellelesson of the week: Whatever your past, live the best life you can for your children. There is a high chance they will turn into you!