Made

There is a well known verse in the Bible that says “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:13, 14 NIV)  I used to think of this verse frequently while I was pregnant – but I recently realized that it is a verse I need to keep in my heart daily.

My baby sweetie pie pooh bear is 10 months old now! She is getting into EVERYTHING and won’t stop moving. She isn’t walking yet, but that doesn’t stop her from exploring. Sometimes I have to just sit back and smile at how every little thing amazes her. As I type, I hear her having a full blown conversation with someone in her crib (she is just waking up). So cute, she definitely melts my heart.

Now I have a confession to make: I compare my baby to other babies! Any new mom will tell you that as much as you try not to do this, it happens. I’m part of a new mom’s group in my city (which has been a big blessing)  and we often share our children’s milestones, so it is kind of difficult not to realize milestones your baby hasn’t achieved. I really have not had a problem in this area, as I understand there is a wide range of development. So what is my comparing problem you ask? My baby is tiny! Now anyone who has met me would roll their eyes at this moment because I have been petite my whole life. I come from a West Indian family and my nick name is “bones”.  That is how skinny I am. So why would it bother me that my daughter is small just like me? I honestly have no idea. I realized I would go to her doctor’s appointments hoping she would have grown leaps and bounds since her last visit. I was annoyed when she stayed at 14 lbs for a few months. It would bother me when someone would comment on how tiny she is. However, overall it bothered me that her size bothered me in the first place.  “She is perfect – exactly as she should be. Why was I letting this get to me?” I thought.

I shared my thoughts with some friends who are also new mothers and I realized that I was totally being a girl. What do women do?  We compare. We envy someone who has longer hair, a smaller waist, a better smile, a nicer car, a better man, a coveted job, and the list goes on. Through this we develop insecurities and the jealousy takes over and we say, think, and do things we shouldn’t.  I believe parents don’t need to be mean in order to make their children insecure. Of course I’m not going to chastise her for her size as she grows. But if I subconsciously have an issue with her size, she will pick up on it and I want to teach her from now that she is beautiful the way she is.  I had to snap out of it. My daughter is not malnutritioned. She is not too skinny. She is perfect just the way she is.  Let’s re-visit the verse above again:

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:13, 14 NIV)

All the assurance I need is right there. She is made just as He intended her to be. And so are you!

  • Recent highlights: Her swimming classes were a hit. She loved being in the water as I expected. It was nice to observe her spending quality time with dad too!
  • Recent funny moment: She has started sharing her food with us (and the dog!) She was eating a piece of bread and would chew on it then give some to her dad. He HATES mushy food so I found this to be hilarious. Yum! Soggy bread:)
  • Recent crazy parent moment: She stopped waking up in the middle of night!  Praise the Lord! Anyway, we went out for dinner yesterday. She was eating bread,  gagged on a big piece and .… wait for it … threw up all over herself. I was so calm during the whole thing I thought to myself  “Wow, I must really be a mom!” lol.
  • Recent milestones:  As I mentioned earlier she is getting into everything. I must say I am not used to this. What happened to the baby that would just lay there and not move? She is crawling, pulling up on stuff, trying to stand (she starts on all fours but she can’t figure out how to raise the top half of her body), clapping, shaking her head “no”, and babbling like crazy. She still doesn’t say mama yet:( She hasn’t been too interested in the stairs – but definitely climbed on the dishwasher door while I was unpacking it yesterday. Oh yeah, she is also very intrigued  with the dog bowl and I caught her trying to drink water out of it this week.  What have we gotten ourselves into?!!
  • Bellelesson of the week: Do you have any insecurities about yourself or your child? Ask God to take them away and help you love yourself and your children, as He made both of you and didn’t make any mistakes.  
  • Update: if you read my last post I was worried about daycare and decided to let it go knowing God would work it out – I got a call about 2 days later saying she got into the daycare of our choice!
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